MorsusVaco

At night, when it's quiet like thoughts without voice I'll still be sitting here, wide-eyed awake With my thoughts stirring the ice in my glass In a plea to be drowned in another few drinks But the dark in my head won't be drowned somehow No matter how may times I pour it a drink Fog moves in to cloud my mind, But it's dark, so the change goes unnoticed. I've tried my best to not keep quiet But my silence just won't be ignored Like before, I've blamed myself for it all But don't I know better than that? The ashtray is filled to the brim with remains Of the thoughts I've thought up into ashes and smoke The bottle stands empty, my

Bordeaux glass stain Rolls lethargically and thick Consuming white tiles inch by creeping inch. A numbness creeps up From my feet unto my head; My body tingles, And cold shivers rack my frame. Red stained steel Breaks silence divine As my fingers lose their strength At last... One last vision Of her in alien throes Sets my bowels ablaze With jealousy and grief, As I slip sideways to the floor, And ice cold, slender arms Embrace my withered soul With a gentleness divine. Darkness invites me To Her black velvet sheets, Beckoning me to spend Eternity in Her arms. I reach my hand, She guides me in... And black velvet she

It was a sunny spring day, somewhere in the countryside. To be exact, it was a day which was everything one might expect from sunny spring days in the countryside: birds flying around singing their love-songs, dancing their aerial dances around each other in a spectacular ballet of love; the gentle buzz of bees dancing their own dances to and fro between the many flowers on the pastures and at the side of the road. New-born lambs were frantically jumping around playing with each other, harassing their lazily grazing mothers in the lush, green pastures through which the dirt road twisted and turned. Truly a beautiful day. But not quite. Fo

We once shared a dream of us On this moonlit hill You rode my horse, and I watched you laugh And your hair blowing back on the breeze Moonlight fell all around us As we stood gazing out on the plains With your hands cradled in both of mine And your head resting on my shoulder The silence carried for miles on the breeze As I held your hands in mine With a throat full of heart and thoughts on the loose Dead-ending into you Just tonight I returned again Only to find you gone Footsteps fading in the sand Leading far away from here My head is screaming at me to run As far away as I can But the knots in my stomach are tied to the

Drinking solitude and cheap wine Drowning my black mood I've got someone else to feel happy with But my head simply refuses How long I've known you I can't say for sure But I do know this: All that time I couldn't keep from loving you No matter how much it hurt Take this cup to my lips, and Fix me up once more I never asked you to stay here for me But I wish I had... Home-made indifference just won't stick I Try not to care, but I do I go on and pretend I am fine But blinds can see that I'm not How long I'm without you I can't say for sure But I do know this: All that time I couldn't take my mind off you And when I tried I

I set myself ablaze every night Just to feel the fire you started Come grab some marshmallows and we'll sing a song 'Bout a guy who tried too hard to get What would've come soon enough If he hadn't scared it away I'm counting the ravens which Fly about the castles in the sky I've built around you, and which kept me From seeing all about you If only I had seen I wish I had I keep the fire going just for fun I like to see me burning like this Grab us some wine, and snuggle up close to me And we'll just keep quiet all night And enjoy the warmth of our fires combined Under a fuzzy fleece blanket I'm counting the ravens that fly

No highs and no depression No swine to throw pearls to Scathed palms and raw, red knees Gave up figting but ain't at peace I don't know what you've got That gets to me every time that I'm alone I don't know what you've got, my love But I'll be alone without it in my grasp Can't feel but shreds of pain When will we talk again Catch dust in shadowed corners Caught imbetween solid borders Stuck inside myself I don't know what we've got That gets to me every time that I'm alone No I don't know what we've got, my love But come, let's find out when we're alone Face-down in higher need Drown slowly where lovers bleed Run lost with

I push my world to move me, but slowly I break And the pain, so exquisite it's heaven to me. I suffer, silently, with my demons screaming, Caught in the throes of a passion for loss. I find myself looking for God in the answers You gave me, when all I believe in is you In trying to make this life work I'm destroying something better, By letting circumstance dictate how and whom to love. It's still here, I can feel it, trying to take down All the walls 'round the feelings I thought held me back But you were all that kept me going Wy'd I wait so long to see? As long as I'm pushing this world on my own: I'm guilty of running, and su

She is gone. One minute we were walking, talking, The other, she was gone… I look for her throughout the city, call her name and cry my worry, but the harder for my selfish grief at no more being with her. Floods of feeling wash through me at failing, still, to find her, as I wander aimlessly from end to end this damnéd street. Sadness overflows, and tears spill from my drowning eyes, adding hysteria to the horror of already missing her. I wander but from foot to foot, the world becomes a madhouse, and it’s all my own to live out all this madness without care but for the friend become a lover for a whi

The sight of your scarred skin sends shivers screaming up and down my spine In recognition of a pain to personal to understand An exquisite inner torture which, though painful, 's so enjoyable To be drowned out in, overtaking every sense of reason A vision hits me of a blade drawing blood from your ashen skin As our eyes make contact for a split-second eternity Your deep blue gaze holds me enthralled yet anxious in a way Holding a delightful promise of a constant need for comfort You radiate a sadness which infects my lovestruck soul And the weight of recognition presses down hard on my guts My arms ache to encircle you, t' provide